atin peace, not in pieces.”
I saw this quote on Tumblr a couple of weeks back, and it was just one of those ‘Wow..’ moments. It was thought provoking. I prefer my edit though, because I don’t wanna just be at peace. I wanna be in peace - all up in it. When I saw this quote, the timing was hella relevant because my life was really just.. chaotic, and so this really hit home.
What does this mean to Krislyn?
To be in peace, there has to exist a form of inner peace. So, let’s think of the former as the derivative of the latter.
Obtaining this, for me, was really just kind of spelled out via my interpretation of this quote.
As stated before on this blog, I have this issue with giving - it’s a curse and a blessing. I give and invest so so so so so much of myself - my time, my energy, my feelings - (in)to people and ultimately, it’s just not reciprocated.
So when I saw this quote, it was like k. Because with me giving myself away to this person and that person, I’m left in this limbo, left subject and vulnerable to the whims, actions and desires of other people. It puts Krislyn into the hands of everyone but Krislyn; everyone but God.
I think of myself as a bottle that’s constantly pouring out and never being poured into. And in every situation, there has to be balance, you know?
I think that it’s a decision that needs to be made.
I have this thing where every morning, I set a goal.. to “be” something, i.e. be the change; be content in the presence of God; be still; be in peace. And this works for me.
I feel like our moods, our attitudes, our outlooks and our perspectives are decisions. How does Krislyn decide to be happy? I decide to be happy. I establish with God and with myself that I am going to be xyz. Not become, but be. Despite what may come, I’ve made the decision to be, and no one can take that from me unless I allow them to.
So after obtaining peace, how do I stay in it? I decide to stay in it. When I’m out of it, I decide to get back into it.
Life’s all about choices. You can decide to focus in on the positives or the negatives. You have the dynamic and continuous opportunity to make a conscious decision to be - to be happy, sad, angry, frustrated, elated, and thousands of other emotions - and that’s really a part of the beauty of life.
Everyone has highs. Everyone has lows. But I think the determining factor is how we interpret and perceive our predicaments and situations. One way leads to the peace, and one way leads to the pieces.
We have the dynamic and continuous opportunity to make a conscious decision to be - to be happy, sad, angry, frustrated, elated, and thousands of other emotions - and that’s really a part of the beauty of life.
Everyone has highs. Everyone has lows. But I think the determining factor is how we interpret and perceive our predicaments and situations. One way leads to the peace, and one way leads to the pieces."
"People often say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realizing that you are the beholder. " - Salma Hayek
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-Denzel Fields (aka #spermdonor15), Morehouse College ‘15
When I heard this, I was like “Wow.” There’s so many people who say they’re in love with this person and that person and love this, that, and the third, but in reality, we only “love” parts and aspects of people. We are only willing to accept the best parts and the best aspects of people.. the flowery things. But, to love someone, you have to be willing to accept them as a whole - their rights, their wrongs; and support them in spite of and through everything. Love is unconditional. It does not change, and it does not go away.
And I think this is important. Because there is such an emphasis on being “in love” with people, and often times, love just seems like a less than mediocre comparison to being in love with someone. I disagree.
I think that we’re so quick to jump into labels that we jump over stages in a sense. In dating or even in just casually talking, it often escalates from “I like you.” all the way to “I love you,” when we’re really just telling fibs, fairy tales, and fabrications. There’s transitions, in my opinion. I like you. I really really like you. I’ve got love for you. etc. etc.
So, I think there needs to be an understanding, especially for little girls. Just because he makes you feel butterflies doesn’t mean that it’s love. It’s okay to stay stuck in the I like you stage. Which is a note to myself, as well.
Because really, by the above definition of love, I only love 3 people outside of my family. I am only willing to accept 3 people, sans family, for better or for worse. And those are the only three people that I can say that I have truly loved.
I’m gonna make a post on this because there’s really so much more that I have to say on this. I just have to go take a shower before bible study right now.
@markuspr1m3_ this is a bit of the process with copic markers